Sunday, July 11, 2010 /9:27 AM
yoz guys! really long time no post. LOL.
Quite a lot of things happened recently there's too much for me to blog.
So...I RATHER DONT BLOG :D
Have some prob with G...my parents not going well...
I feel so stress...everyday.
How i wish NDP can finish as fast as possible.
But also, God is always always moving in my life.
He gave me so much blessing.
I love you Father.
I suppose to put You first in my life...but i forsake You...Im really sorry.
Im going to find my first love back, with You and You alone.
Gary just bought me a bible recently.
IT COST $45 LEH!!!
OMG! really really thank you :D
I love it! The bible is so nice!
I was dreaming of a new bible since last year.
Hmmm...my relationship with friends also improved a lot :)
I thank God for giving me confidence in life, and new friends :D
I really treasure friendship a lot :)
haiz...i think i'll never go back kranji choir soprano le...
But im still believing God for a miracle :)
So before this miracle come to past, i must love alto :D
Jiayou jiayou! :)
Now 12.34am le, i just blog for fun, cuz so long never update le.
Bye!~~
Goodbye Singapore!
Friday, June 11, 2010 /1:08 AM
Just wanna blog the last post before i leave sg :(
Cause blogger, facebook, plurk, i think twitter, all not available at shanghai.
So retarted...
Ah...i regret not to update my blog le...
I regret that i never touch any of my homework...
I regret not to go qunying gathering...
But also got a lot of good things happened :)
To be honest...i dont like to go shanghai...
Although i'm quite excited, but sad to leave sg :(
Everytime i go back, i wont be able to feel God.
It's a very sad thing...
I wont have time and space to pray also...
Ohya! I got a good news to announce :)
I fulfilled my building fund!! :D
Yay!!!
At first i tot it's almost IMPOSSIBLE to fulfil...
the amount that i pedge is too much, too painful for me to afford.
During this BF period of time, i prayed a lot, i sacrifice my money and meals a lot.
I learnt how to sacrifice for God with a willing heart.
Haiz...now 4.21, i hope time can pass slower, so i can tweet, blog, plurk more.
I very scare the announcement will say need to board now.
OHNO, the moment i say, the moment the announcement say 5 more min...
Haiz, bye singapore :(
I miss you!
AWESOME AC!
Sunday, June 6, 2010 /6:53 PM
Woah! I'm feeling so good this morning that i feel like blogging :)
Sorry for not updating for the past few days.
I had a wonderful amazing AWESOME time at Asia Conference :)
I learn a lot, i experienced God in a different way.
I enjoy queuing up for sessions, having lunch together with cg.
Spending my whole day at expo, first time i really explore expo.
But the sad thing is i got fever in the first day :(
39.2 degree is my highest temperature.
I'm feeling so unwell that i take cap home. (that case is i really cant even walk)
21 dollars...so ex...
Then in night, i'm feeling soooooo uncomfortable.
My body burning like boiling water.
I call up momo, then she suggest me to see a doctor.
I see a doctor alone sia :(
And the medicine fee super ex!!! 64 dollar! Faint*
I really nearly faint when i walk my way to the bus stop from the clinic.
Go back home, eat some porridge and some pills, have a good sleep.
Next morning, 36.3 degree!!! HALLELUJAH!
I really take God for blessing.
Hehe, i tot i wont get heal so fast, in the end God did a miracle in me!
Some more the next day is my birthday xD I wont want myself to be sick.
I go to night session with pst phil. Woah! I love him!!
Have a wonderful night with him :) really sense the power of God in the hall.
Cell group give me a very very nice cotton on strips jacket, i really love it!
The next day, went whole day :) Woah! It was nice.
Have a great night session with our very own PST KONG! xD
I teared a lot under the presence of God. (and that is the only time i teared in the 5 days of AC)
I still think that pst kong preach the best, he preach in a more simple way that everybody can understand. I cant really understand the other pastors like pst cho, pst phil, pst bernard.
Day 4, AWESOME night with Pst Reinhard Bonnke, the greatest evanganlist alive in the world.
I didn't know he can be so awesome!!
When he preach, he almost shouted all the way. But i love it! :D
When he say those youth who wanted to give your life to preach the gospel of God, i dun want you to come down, but i want you to RUN!!!!!
OMG! i'm shocked at first! Then i ran in front, i'm really desperate to experience the fire of God that time.
The moment i come in front of the stage, the presence of God strikes me.
Suddenly i feel FIRE flowing up and down in my body! That was so amazing!
I close my eyes to worship, i want more of this feeling.
That is the first time i fear the Lord. I felt fear in my heart.
Every kind of tongues is pour out by people all around me.
People are pushing and squeezing, a lot of them fall in the presence of God.
I fear God more.
I start to shout out my tongues, still feeling the fire of God flowing in me.
I was thinking how great can it be if pst bonnke lay hand on me, since i was standing in the front row. In the end didn't ;p
Woshhh! It was AWESOME! I will never forget the feeling of the flow of fire.
I know and i know that after that moment, my life is never gonna be the same again.
I want to spread the gospel...
Finally the grand finale.
It was more amazing :)
Cai Qin come and perform, i was so inspired by her testimony, i feel goosebumps everywhere. I never expect her to be such a spiritual woman, although i always hear abt her from my parents.
I feel like showing off to my parents her photos and her testimony when i go to shanghai :P
Then...the highlight of AC...
Night with pst Bernard!!!
Pst Kong say God will put the best to the last! :)
But...i hate myself!!! I fallen asleep a lot of times during svc.
Was too tired for the past 4 days, that i always feel like i'm living in my dream while i'm awake. i can sleep when i close my eyes for 1 min.
Amazing sermon...seriously...
I heard the last part of the sermon when i slap myself to wake up.
We need to have the right self-concept that God oringial wanted us to be in the first place when we're send to Earth from Heaven.
We must be our right self...We must spread the gospel...We must do great things for God...We must serve the Lord, love the people...
I believe these are the things God want us to have, to do.
I really learn a lot in AC. Every note i write down will be so precious.
After svc, go food fair with my cg, rae cg, and jieying cg ppl :)
Had a great time there!
I realize AC also make ppl draw closer in relationship.
I got a feeling that after AC, things are going better in my life :)
For the past 1 week, everything is going so fine.
God is always blessing me and guiding me in my life.
Our God is really a awesome God, nobody can compare with Him.
Bad day
Tuesday, May 25, 2010 /6:13 AM
Hi guys!
Do you know what day is today?
It's the eve of Asia Conference!! :D
Ohmygosh...super excited!!
Tmr meeting emi 6am at JE MRT station.
6pm leh!!!
Need to wake up super early!
Wah...cant wait for AC to come :)
So sad...a lot of people cannot come for morning session, which is so impt :(
Today...got 1 very very sad thing happened...
It's so sad to be mistaken by others.
I almost cried...
i feel so angry, so much hatred...
I was thinking...what is the reason that always make ppl to hate me...
I didnt say in mean lor...
Why people always want to think i'm 'that' kind of person...
Haiz..dun want to say already...what a bad day...
Tmr, MUST BE A GOOD DAY :D
ps. (kor can u dun be sad? i'm sorry...)
我的精彩
Sunday, May 23, 2010 /10:21 AM
我还是很想用华文来写我的部落格。
真的好想用繁体字来写，可惜我不会……
唉，最近发生了我多事，数也数不清。
接下来的日子还会有很多事情会发生。
真是的……一打起华文字就想到台湾了;(
啊……好想念基隆哦！
时间真的过得好快。
怎么一眨眼5个月就过去了呢？！
天哪……浪费太多时间了。
仔细想想离我考大学的时间只剩4年，真的真的要开始用功了！
要不然我的人生要毁了;(
只是觉得很不可思议，在这短短的4年间你便要决定自己的人生道路。
但是……好难做决定哦！
路道密密麻麻的像迷宫似的！
烦死人了！可不可以好好地享受一下青春的滋味啊？
我最近真的很烦……在想很多事情。
唉，我不懂为什么自己要出生在一个国籍这么复杂的家庭里。
根本就没有我落地生根的地方嘛～
到头来还不是浪费时间……
爸爸妈妈的性格怪怪的，要忍受他们可真是够了。
一个时候大吵大闹，一个时候有冒出一堆甜言蜜语。
（鸡皮疙瘩）
害我的情绪都要跟着他们一直改变。
真是的，我又不是铁打的。
每天每天，我妈都在跟我谈政治的事。
什么哪个国家的总统怎么样怎么样；哪个国家有多少钱；哪个国家的经济发展是什么情况。
不管怎样……我的人生不是父母想怎样就怎样的。
我有自己的自由与掌管人生的权利，不想像个木偶一样，被他们随意操控。
我要为自己的人生展开一场精彩的表演，不是为了别人……
豁出去了……才不管亲戚们的眼光咧。
我只是想要活得精彩些，不是为了别人，而是为了自己。
AWESOME!
/8:16 AM
WOAH! Long time never blog liao :)
Some of you miss me right? Jkjk xD
hmmm :) a lot of things happened in this one week.
Good thing? Bad thing? Both got.
Actually this is a tiring week.
But not much of lessons, all the workshops and speeches by speakers who come to our school.
Very inspired by the speaker who come to our school for the "leadership talk", it's not boring at all, i laugh like dunno what during the talk xD
After the talk, i changed my mindset about leadership :)
This week read 3 romance novel, so nice.
I also want to want to write a romance novel, trying now :)
I pray that i wont fail again...last time my fiction novel failed...
Super sad de :(
Jiayou yvon!
Wah...i miss today and yesterday.
Time had past too fast :( That i had not enjoy myself enough, it past.
Today had an awesome cgm with w279! :D
I really really got to treasure my limited time with them...
Awesome and fun games! Thanks to Kelvin and Zengying!
Had a great time enjoying myself and laughing xD
Wonderful experience with God :)
I know that whenever we spend time with God, He will always speak.
But whether or not you will hear Him, depends on how much you focus on Him and catch hold of the Holy Spirit.
I got this vision of Jesus, leading a group of people walked to the top of the mountain.
Jesus stretch out His hands and worship God.
Some of Jesus's diciples bow down to worship.
And God look at them from Heaven, He smiled and He love them so much.
Some of the disciples worship Him so faithfully and wholeheartenly that they really touched God's heart, and He teared.
What a beautiful scene? :)
Then suddenly God spoke to me, and He said: "Yvonne, you are like the disciple who bow into worshipping me with all your heart. I treasure it and I love you."
God showed himself as a loving and caring father.
Great sermon by Kelvin :)
He shared about Praise today.
'Praise is not an expression but a decision.'
'Praise is a garment, you can choose to put it on or take it off.'
'Praise is not a feeling, you will have to praise God all the time.'
Amen--so be it.
Really learnt something new today.
God turn my sad mood to strong and confident in spirit :)
Hallelujah!
OHYA OHYA OHYA!
3 more days to AC xD
Really really excited!
Gonna bring lots of bread in my bag to prevent myself from starving xp
It's gonna be AWESOME!
On 26 May i will skip school to go for the opening session with Dr Yonggi Cho.
I believe it's gonna be very very overwhelming!
Gonna wake up at 5am everyday and queue up with cell group in the morning.
So fun!
Wah...Really excited now!
AC!!! Faster come xD
Hmmm...that's all i have to say :)
I believe next week it's gonna be an AWESOME week!
Tomorrow i WILL enjoy myself in school!
I WILL!!
Praise the Lord! :)
Set free!
Saturday, May 15, 2010 /10:46 AM
Today, i'm set free.
By a special, special prayer by pst Robin.
She's a powerful pastor.
She show love to us, just so different from all the other pastors that come to preach for us before.
She screamed with us, cheered with us, she got her own style of preaching.
When pastor call us to cheer for her arrival, we really cheered from the deep of our heart, clap and cheer for at least 7min.
Wah, hand pain pain.
I enjoyed the praise and worship, wholeheartenly.
Sang new songs.
Which are so beautiful :)
I'm so proud of our talented church members.
The songs really touched me deeply.
During pst Robin preaching, i just think low abt her.
Like...she's a female pastor, somemore so young, can she preach as well as the other pastor?
She shared abt her life.
How bad her life is, how God lead her to the right church, and right partner :)
Then she suddenly she laugh.
Is like quite scary...
Sounds a bit like witch...
When she call us to bow our heads and close our eyes,
And she ask if anybody have a life like hers, who's in addiction, who want to seek God, who need to set free...just come forward.
Then that time nobody raise up their hand.
I was like thinking, will anybody just respond?
If not, like very 尴尬 sia, she call for people to respond but nobody come up.
Then...i think i'm very bad...
I laugh at her a bit...
is like thosee kind of 要等着看好戏的心情。
I really very bad:(
Then the musician start to play the music.
She keep convincing people to come forward to respond to God.
She said that Jesus will set us free.
Then i also got persuade lay min to go down.
Wah, it's really very hard to persuade ppl to respond, is like, quite paiseh.
But at least...she's better than me.
A few people go down and respond.
Pst Robin ask for more people to come, there's another wave, another wave.
I tot i dun need to respond, cuz last time i respond already, i think i'm set free already.
So i just sit at my seat.
Then i see more and more people go down to respond, i begin to feel guilt.
Am i really set free? If yes, why am i feeling so broken now?
Why am i feeling sad easily? Feeling offended easily?
Then i was like thinking, shld i go down?
Dont want larh, very paiseh, i just sit here and pray can already.
Then she speaks very convincing...
Come, come, come, come, come, come...
Her words really move my heart.
I struggled a lot.
Then i saw yee liang, alvin, angel them respond...
People running their way to the front...
SUDDDENLY, just like something strike me.
I suddenly just stand up, and make my way to the front.
Something calling me to move, i cannot, CANNOT miss this chance.
I think it's the Holy Spirit...
Then i'm surprise that karuna actually pei me down, even when i go down already.
Really very touched and happy :)
Then after i go down, after a few min, pst Robin start calling us to pray.
Thank God for waiting for me...
Then while i'm praying, i start to cry...
I dunno why, i just told myself, now i'm in the presence of God, just cry.
I really burst into tears sia...
Just like something released from the inside of me.
Karuna prayed for me, i cried even more.
I flashed back all the unhappiness i had from the past, even now...
I cried even more...
After some moment, i finally stop crying.
Everything was released out.
I want to believe that from today onwards, none of my day will be sad, i'll be happy everyday.
Really, happiness is the only thing that i need in life.
Of course, and God :)
Really thank God that i'm set free yesterday.
Thank You Holy Spirit for letting me making the right choice.
I think i'll sure regret if i didn't make my way down...
I think my life will not be the same again.
:) Need to believe, confess, pray!!!
In Asia Conference there will be more miracles coming up!
Super Excited!!! :D
